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• Back on the Hamster Wheel

  31Aug
  Categories: General Update, Screaming In The Wind, Self-Improvement, Weight Loss Progress Comments: 3

  So… I’ve been eating like crap lately. I admit it. Cheese… LOTS of cheese. Bread… OMG the Bread! Cookies, Apple Cake, Ice Cream… (That was just this weekend!!!!)

  My eating has gone off the deep end again. It seems if I don’t keep my eating in the forefront of all thoughts… it goes absolutely out of control! I can FEEL myself gaining back that 18 lbs I lost before the move. Grrrrrrrrrr.

  Today I start my no starchy/carby thing again. Back on the fruit and potatoes and off of the bread and rice and junkfood. (Why oh WHY do I always start this RIGHT BEFORE my monthly cycle? It’s like I’m a sadist and a masochist all rolled into one! Blerggh)

  Breakfast: 1 plum

  Lunch will be a can of bean soup.

  Dinner will be left over Chicken Curry with potatoes and carrots and a salad.

  I’ll supplement with other fruit through out the day. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

  ETA: Lunch ended up being 2 medium boiled eggs lightly salted and peppered and a bowl of cinnamon oatmeal (not instant) with cinnamon apple sauce added. Unfortunately, the milk was 2% not skim. Meh.

• Focus … Forward

  26Aug
  Categories: Blogger Archives, Weight Loss Progress Comments: 4

  Wedding Planning is SOOOOOO not my future career.

  My future MIL and SIL are in wedding prep OVERDRIVE. I feel like a horrible, horrible bride because, honestly, I don’t HAVE an opinion or a specific desire for so MANY of the details they ask me about.

  I picked the colors. I DID have specific colors in mind. I picked the venue. I picked my dress and the tuxes. I picked the cakes. I picked the menu for the caterer. I chose the invitations and the rings. I picked the flowers… for everyone.

  

  Is it odd that I’m just kind of… eh… about all of this? I mean, I AM excited about it. The girl in me is just all “Squeeeeeee”!!!! However, the wedding… it’s like… IN MY WAY a bit. I’m ready to get ON with our lives together and the wedding is this huge EVENT to start that life out. I SO get that. I truly do. I’m grateful for all the work and money our family is putting into this event. However… all that is just the… **waves hands in the air aimlessly** flotsam and jetsam. The important part, to me, is what comes AFTER the event. I’m looking forward to having him be my partner. I’m looking forward to quiet nights after the child is in bed. I’m looking forward to “Family Nights” WITH the child. I’m anxious for “Date Nights” and babysitters. I can’t wait for Holidays with both his side of the family and mine.

  I know it won’t all be sunshine and rainbows. I am not NEARLY that naive. I’m also waiting for the disagreements. The stepping on each others toes. The standing up for what each of us believes is the RIGHT thing. Annnnnd the making up **wiggles eyebrows**.

  Is it so wrong that THAT is what I’m focused on rather than the trappings of the wedding? Am I all that odd? Is it something more brides think about than is apparent? I dunno. I dun care. It’s who I am.

• Change Makes The World Go ‘Round

  25Aug
  Categories: Family, General Update, Weight Loss Progress Comments: 4

  Annnnd we’re live!

  I’m back. The divorce is final. We made the move to Kansas. The house is bought and moved into. (I LOVE this house. He did SUCH a great job of finding the right one for all of us!)

  We are now in the throes of trying to get everything unpacked and find the proper spot for everything while, simultaneously, planning our wedding which is in 3 weeks. Holy. Crap.

  Life seems to be moving at warp speed these days. My weight loss efforts have been… ummm… stalled. However, I’m trying not to gain. Trying to maintain. After September 19th though… I will be kicking my ass all over the place trying to lose it.

  Shecky seems to be adjusting well. He really, REALLY likes his new school. He’s made friends with a couple of kids and there is potential with a few more.

  Apparently, the school has… ummm.. bats… in it’s… attic… which… ummm… PERIODICALLY visit my child’s classroom. I’m a little alarmed by this but as long as my son doesn’t sprout fangs and start sparkling a la Edward in Twilight it should be ok… RIGHT?