Ummm Not so much. 4:30am we were awakened by a call from my Nanny Deb. My grandmother lives with her. Grandma was having problems. Her blood pressure was 197/102 and her Oxygen level was only 85%. That’s really high and really low for those that don’t know. Nanny Deb wanted to take her to the ER. Grandma said she just wanted to be left alone to die. In the end, my cousin Jody convinced her to go to the ER by explaining that she wasn’t DYING, per se, but that she’d likely have a stroke with her Blood Pressure being so high and wouldn’t THAT just make the quality of her life SO much better? (GO JODY!!!)
She’s been in the ER at the hospital since shortly after 7:00AM. We were told she’d been moved to the ICU… only… she’s STILL in the fricking ER waiting on a bed to free up in ICU.
They’ve given her some nitre glycerin and her blood pressure is better. They’re still admitting her though.
The kicker, my friends, is that today is the one year anniversary of my grandfather, her husband, passing away. Mom had planned to go to the cemetery and visit Grandpa. She didn’t get to go. She felt like she needed to stay close to home in case they needed her for something.
As horrible as this is going to make me sound, I wonder how much of Grandma’s health crisis today is due to it being the anniversary of his death. How much of it was her wanting to die because its the day he died and how much of it was her wanting the focus of today to be on her. (You would have to really know my grandmother to understand why I would even THINK this.) I feel like a really shitty person for wondering those things, but, I do wonder them.
Mom feels like she was robbed of the opportunity to reflect on her father’s life and passing today. She feels like, this day, of all days, should have been about him. Yet, she’s forced to put her focus elsewhere. I agree with her, but again, I have to wonder if it was horrible that it turned out the way it did. The focus of today became the living, not the dead. I’m not so sure that’s such a horrible way to mark the passing of a man we all loved and miss.
Maybe, I’m just thinking too much….
Apologies:
So, SO sorry I’ve been so absent post wise lately. Life has been completely crazy lately.
Updates:
My grandmother is home and doing… ok. She’s having a rough time and we’re thinking some of her meds aren’t properly managing some of the health issues but we’re waiting and giving it a lil more time.
My Father In Law is now in the hospital. He had knee surgery replacement on both knees recently and he’s thrown some clots into his lungs. He’s recovering and will be on a cumin regimen for the next 6 or so months to make sure the problem doesn’t recur.
Husband’s Grandmother was taken to the ER today. She fell and scraped the hell out of her arm. The probably wouldn’t have bothered with the ER except she started having dizzy spells and threw up something… well.. black. The Dr’s didn’t admit her but sent her home with medications for dizziness and nausea and instructions to see her regular physician…. WTF???
I spent today wrapping gifts. I’m DONE. Whew! I have ONE MORE gift to purchase. Bleh.
I have lost 7.2 lbs in the last 2 weeks. I have lost a total of 62 lbs since mid July. I am 1.3 lbs from being below 400 lbs. Holy Hells!
Query:
Teachers and gift certificates for a restaurant … your thoughts?
Cute Shecky Story:
My child now plays basketball. At the first practice, I observed him picking on a child on his team that has Down’s Syndrome. Its not anything he wouldn’t have done to pick on any other child but I lost it. I called him offa the court in the MIDDLE of practice. He walked off the court. The coach said, “WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU’RE GOING?” My child, bless his bones, replied, “MY MOMMAH HOLLERED FOR ME TO COME TO HER!” EVERYONE heard. EVERYONE laughed. I… wanted… to… die. lol. At least he’s trained well.